I realized earlier today I forgot to blog about something last night. I forgot to talk about my mom's Celebration of Life party. To those who attended, please know it truly did mean a lot to me. I was very overwhelmed that day and did not get to talk to each and every person. I did not get much sleep the night before her party. My nerves were crazy! I kept telling myself that her party was her "funeral." I was hoping to gain closure, which I did not.
I got up very early the morning of the big day to help my dad set up everything. I got to the facility first (it is literally 2 miles from my house), and as I was driving through the entrance, right in front of me was a shooting star. I took that as a sign from mom. I am sure she loved her party. My sister and I made around 6-7 photo boards. I laughed because there are more pictures of my mom holding animals than children, lol.
There were many people who came throughout the day to her event. I was happy to see such a great turn out. I was so exhausted after it was over. I slept like a baby afterwards! Then the next day my grandma, my sister, and myself went through mom's clothes. You would think that would make things seem real, but it did not. I do have moments where it hits me. But overall, I still think I can call her up or go visit. One thing that was hard about my first day back to work was after the day was over. Driving home from work was the one time of the day I called her the most. And this was a big day- Liam had his first daycare experience! So instead I called my dad and Clint.
I am not trying to sound like a basket case about everything, and I do not want people to feel sorry for me. Just understand if I have moments I am not myself. I try to have those moments alone if I feel one coming. I miss my mom so much. No words can explain how that hurts. So seriously, tell your loved ones how much they mean to you. You will not regret it!
I want to thank everyone for their thoughts, prayers, cards, texts, emails, phone calls, etc. during this difficult time. You all are so kind. Also a BIG thank you to my fellow xray peeps at Deaconess and their generous gift- I sure do love me some massages and you all rock for giving me that gift card to Fusion Spa! I love that place!
On a different and happier note:
I do not know if you all remember, but last year Kim Burkhart and I created the first ever Travis Burkhart Foundation Steps For Hope 5k/10k Walk/Run. Well this year it will be part of the opening ceremonies at the new I-69 in Washington, IN. The race will be on Saturday Oct. 20th at 9:00am (EST). If you miss out on pre-registering, you can still register day of race starting at 7:00am (EST).
Due to recent things in my life, I have not been able to help Kim out as much on preparing for the race. I want to thank her and the rest of the Burkhart family for being so kind and understanding. I have decided that 2013 will be my year. I will have more positive things happen, and I cannot wait to see what is in store for me!